Who has the time? Not I.

Have you ever tried to convince yourself that someone was bad for you? You tell yourself that they ain't sh*t, you can do better, better is out there, they only want you for sex, etc.

And after you do all that huffing and puffing, after attempting to mentally exile them from your mind and heart, they simple throw you a smile and that icebox where your heart used to be melts, instantly. Ugh.





Lately it seems like no matter how many vicious lies or harsh truths I tell myself, I'm right back at square one by just seeing his face. It's the absolute worst. He's a great person but he's just not great for me. I'm trying to detach myself so I don't get caught up in the mess that would ensue if I did, but I is strugglin.

I suppose this is a "Time Heals all Wounds" thing, but it's pretty annoying none the less. It annoys me that even though my mind and heart know he's not IT they still insist on concocting elaborate fantasies and stirring up misguided emotions.

I'm trying not to be an "unstable creature" but my emotions are everywhere but where they should be (non-existent) but hey, what can you do?


Playas gonna play.

Ballas gonna ball.

Feelings gonna feel.

Until I shoot them with my gun.

POW!